Oh the roller coaster that is being 39 weeks pregnant.
In one day I can experience the fullest range of emotions – and I would not consider myself an extremely emotional person.
At one point in my day life can seem perfectly lovely and happy and then about a split second later I find myself wanting to hide from my children in the bathroom and cry.
In one moment I tell myself that I’d be okay with baby coming late because there are still memories to be made with just our two kids – and there are lots of activities coming up this next week due to the 4th of July, as well as Caleb’s 4th birthday – and there’s definitely plenty more that I could do to prepare for the baby . . . .
Then, a quick second later I change my mind and think that I’m going to lose my mind if this baby doesn’t show up now because I’m tired of the insomnia and the random reflux and the whole feeling like I’m 80 years old. And plus I don’t want baby coming too late because we have a house guest a little later on in July . . . .
Oh, but then I remember the unpleasantness (to put it mildly) that is labor and I decide that no, I’m totally not ready for all of that again (and for some reason repeating “I am a strong woman” to myself doesn’t seem to be helping, ha!) 😉
Can anyone else relate to all of this? (Please say yes!)
Anyway, this blog post is more of an “I needed to write my thoughts somewhere” kind of post than anything else. Obviously, the end to this roller coaster is whenever baby decides to show up. (Of course, that may likely be the start of another one but I just won’t think about that right now haha.)
In the mean time, tonight I’m pulling out these Bible verses to look over because though I’m not in labor yet, they’re definitely still perfect.
Oh, and I’m listening to Oceans – the only song I know from Hillsong – because it feels appropriate for right now.
Anyway . . . to all you other pregnant mamas out there – hang in there! We can do this! And I’ve heard that this roller coaster has a really fantastic prize at the end. 😉
Leave a Reply